Today was a very mixed day emotionally. Jaden did really good over night again and this morning he got the go ahead to be closed. They said they were going to close him this afternoon.
Our friend Steph came at lunch time. Her and I went over to see Jaden. We were there for about 2 hours and at least 45 minutes of the time we were there he had his eyes open and was moving his arms around a lot. He is pretty sedated but does have awake times and it was when we were there. That was very cool. Steve was helping with the baby next to us so I did not want to leave to make sure Jaden did not hit his open chest or anything. The baby next to us went bad. They had to bring the crash cart in and the room filled with a lot of people. We were trapped in and had to listen to this through the curtain. I told Jaden he could not hear this and turned up his music. I had a really hard time dealing with this. I was almost in a panic. It just was to close to home. This could have been and still could be Jaden. He is totally in the circumstance that it could be him. It was so hard. I almost started to feel faint. It was not a good feeling and it affected my whole day. The baby ended up being stable and we were able to leave but he is still not doing well at all.
Sal and the kids left and that was very hard for me. I walked them to the car and didn't even make it there before I was crying. It is so hard for me. I know I will see them in a few days but it is just so hard. I did not let them see me cry but I could not hold it in when I said good bye to Sal. I felt a loneliness when I got to our room. I then decided to go back and see Jaden. When I got there, the doors were closed with and "OR in Progress" sign on it. They were closing him. When they were done, the surgeon came out and said, "he was a gem. It went fabulously." I was very excited it went so well. Kelly, dad, Mattie and I went and saw him tonight and it was so nice to see him yet another step closer to recovery. However, while I was in there his blood pressure fell pretty bad and the nurse even got nervous. This was the worst I had seen anyone respond to anything for Jaden. This was not good to see. By the time we left though he was doing ok but the nurse said tonight problems would be with blood pressure if anything. They will most likely have to give him more blood. He was already on the borderline for needing it.
Anyway, sleep overs start this week. (I am glad for this.) The kids go back to school tomorrow and they are excited. We have 2 pictures that Ashley gets to take to school with her and she asked if she can take them anywhere to show everyone. She is very excited for everyone to see them.
Well, I will let you know how tonight went for our little cuttie pie. Love to you all, Steph